i like my bathroom,
cold porcelain and razorblades,
full of mirrors to obsess
hour after hour.
spending my days in baths, i breathe a mix of vices,
smoke, coffee, fine white powder,
my favorite habits.
knees pulled to my chin, i let the
lip of tub draw me closer,
as if it can contain me
as if it can hold me back.
it's when the bubbles melt away,
into fine threads of soap on water,
that i realize just how much i hate myself,
thighs and legs and stomach and scars,
all ninety nine pounds of me.
i want to be less, in skin and flesh,
here, i am senseless and hungry,
bleeding, raw and open, and oh so lovely.
it isn't about vanity
I enjoy looking at all forms of art but wouldn't categorise myself as 'arty', that title goes to my brother. But i do enjoy photography.
Once again my brother is the pro of the family and he has taught me what i know so far but i think i am getting better at the techniques of photography and editing and looking at the world in a different way...through the eye of a lense.
I have been going through some personal issues lately and i find that photography is a great outlet and release. Theres nothing like bundling all your gear up in your car and driving to a place and spending countless hours there taking photos of everything and anything.
i have been thinking lately and wouldn't mind pursuing photography further by going to school to study it. My dream would be to one day travel the world taking photos and eventually being able to sell them or even have a small showing.
Current Residence: Oz Favourite genre of music: punk/rock/alternative Favourite photographer: Sally Mann Operating System: windows xp MP3 player of choice: ipod nano Skin of choice: my own Favourite cartoon character: invader zim, gir, Jessica Rabbit, Astro Boy Personal Quote: 'People demand freedom of speech to make up for the freedom of thought which they avoid.'